On My Own

Posted on March 26, 2012 at: 6:08 pm  -  Comments

It’s been a whirlwind over these last three weeks. It’s hard for me to believe that much time has passed because everything has happened so quickly. Having two little girls, two and under, takes a bit of getting used to. I’m trying to spend a lot of time with Harlan, but Avery is so dependent on me right now that it makes it hard.

As much as I want to say that I’ve been doing great on my own for the last three weeks, I’d be completely lying to you. Since Avery’s birth, I’ve been lucky enough to have my mother-in-law here to help out. Because most of my time is spent with the demands of a newborn, my mother-in-law has taken over the reigns with Harlan.

I’ve wanted to keep Harlan’s schedule the same since Avery was born. Other than one missed day of school (because Har was sick,) we haven’t strayed from her daily routine. My MIL has taken her to school three days a week, music class, and would even wake up with her in the morning so that I can sleep in with the baby. Harlan has probably had more fun with her “Jannie” taking her out than she usually does with me because she’s had plenty of playground play dates after school, which is much more than Harlan and I did after school.

Having her here has taken a huge load off of my shoulders. It’s made the time that I spend with Avery that much more special and a chance for us to really bond.

I was so nervous about the newborn stage, but Avery has made is easy for me to adjust. When we brought Harlan home from the hospital, I called MacKay crying several times because I didn’t know if I could take care of her on my own. I don’t know if it was the pure exhaustion (Harlan was not the greatest sleeper) or the “newness” of parenthood, but it was complete hell those first few weeks.

This time around is completely different. I am more relaxed, find that I am getting much more sleep than I expected, and have actually managed to take a shower and blow dry my hair everyday (a momentous accomplishment in my book.)

I don’t think this transition could have gone smoother if I didn’t have MacKay by my side. He’s really stepped up with Harlan and has taken charge when I wasn’t able to. I’ve seen his relationship with Harlan flourish over the last three weeks.

Even with his busy work schedule, he manages to put all of his extra time into our daughters, making sure they know they are loved and cherished.

Tomorrow my mother-in-law leaves to go home, and for the first time I will officially be on my own to mother these two beautiful little girls.

I will admit that I am a little terrified to navigate the streets of NYC on my own. Gone are the days of Harlan and I easily getting on and off the bus or the train. Now the days ahead of us mean walking to school with our double stroller or having Avery snuggled in the moby wrap while Harlan and I walk the street hand in hand.

My mom comes to visit next week, so my time on my own will be short lived, but I am ready to take on the challenge of two little ones in the city.

Life has and will continue to change drastically for our little family of four. As much as I know it will take time to get used to, I’ve never been more excited. Because even with little sleep, crazy schedules, demanding children, and even navigating the concrete jungle all on my own, there is no other job that I’d rather have, the job of a mother.

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  1. Caroline says:

    Hi Lauren,
    What a great Blog. I came across your blog through my good friends Hillary Chisholm and Kristen Mills. FUun to know we have some friends in common. I too went to FSU (was actually your neighbor in Pi Phi) 🙂 Your daughters are beautiful. I just had my first daughter, Lucia who is now 4 months. Where does the time go??? What a whirlwind mommyhood is! Thanks for sharing your adventures!

    1. Lauren says:

      Hi Caroline! Thank you for stopping by. Such a small world. Thank you for the sweet compliment on my two girls. Just check out your blog and your daughter is precious! 🙂

  2. Anna says:

    so sweet. here’s to lots of adventures with your girls in the city!

    1. Lauren says:

      Thank you, Anna!

  3. AizzaMarie says:

    This is really so sweet…I hope I can have an adventure with my kids too this year…And I am sure they will enjoy this…

  4. Patty at A Day in My NYC
    Twitter: nycpatty

    The girls are gorgeous! I’m sure you will get into your new routine with your two angels very soon 🙂

  5. Jenn {Mommie Couture}
    Twitter: mommiecouture

    You have the cutest little family!!!

  6. Kerri
    Twitter: SavvyMomNYC

    Beautiful girls!
    It is tough getting around in the beginning, but before you know it, you get into a groove and it all works out. I too was lucky enough to have help in the beginning. Two year olds need to be on the go and newborns want you to sit and snuggle with them. Enjoy!

  7. what a beautiful post! you’ll have your rhythm down before you know it! selfishly, i’m reading every word and taking it all in so that I know what I’m in for when baby number 2 makes her arrival!

  8. Isthiak Ahsan says:

    Lauren you’re gifted with two flowers name Avery & Harlan.Yeah it’s a little bit difficult to manage newborn when you have an elder one.But the joy motherhood washes away everything.Good luck to four of you.

  9. Jen {at} take2mommy
    Twitter: take2mommy

    Yeay for grandma help! Glad things are going well with Avery. I too felt overwhelmed with my 1st son, but when #2 came along 20 months later I had a much easier time with him.

  10. Missa
    Twitter: staycationmama

    Your girls are absolutely gorgeous! I’m so happy you’ve had help from your MIL in order to bond with your newborn. That’s my biggest fear about having a second baby–that I just won’t care as much about the new one as the original, ya know? You’re proving that wrong so beautifully 🙂

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